crash course on death

I'm always hiding underneath the waves, or chasing the clouds away with flailing arms and a baseball bat. One foot on the ground, and the other who knows where. My head may be stuck in space, but you'll never catch me thinking about death.

This is a crash course on freedom, because even a lifetime isn't enough to explain its complexities and definitely not enough to know all its simplicities. This is a crash course on drawing blood and giving it away to the world. You've got a heart of gold, but you've broken it up and forged it into all sorts of pretty trinkets. That'd be okay if I ever saw you giving them away on street corners.

And right now I'm going to do something catastrophic, so you may want to pop a squat and fasten your seat belts. I'm going to put both feet on the ground, and it will send ripples through the earth and the tectonic plates won't even be able to handle it. I'm going to ponder death for a moment, I'll ponder it so good.

The way I see it every single one of us has got one foot in the grave and the other on a banana peel.

Death isn't that subtle, is he?

trumpets and xylophones

I wonder sometimes what I did to make you so bipolar around me. One second you're leaning elbows on my knees and the next you're leaning away - eyes averted, bitten tongue, stiff muscles and crossed arms.

You make me feel uncomfortable, but that's not a bad thing. I'm scared of putting my head on your shoulder, and that's okay. I'm scared of your embrace, and this is a good thing, really. Can't you see that means I care in intimate ways that fool others of indifference? It's hard liking you, but that's a glorious thing and the future will have written songs with trumpets and xylophones about this unrequited love.

I close my mouth and think too much around you, now that's a bad thing. Horrid, really. I should tell you how it aches to see her running petite fingers through your hair. Because one second you're leaning elbows on my knees and the next you're leaning into her hand - eyes closed, lips quirked, at ease and completely smitten.

to you

Hey, you.
I just wanted to say that I could've sworn there was something. Maybe you missed it, or maybe I was just getting my hopes up again, but you don't go for midnight swims with just anyone. And I'm packing up all my things and putting them in cardboard boxes just like I've learned to do all of my life. I read somewhere once that long hair intimidates boys; for that reason, I've been aching to cut mine. But you told me not to, and somehow that gave me insight to a million different things about you and about me and about how I'm starved for affection.
I was wrong, I guess.
I got my hopes up, I guess.
A nice trim will do, anyways.
It hurts, but it's time to move on.
A nice trim will do.
You and I are not to be…
Why isn't this ever easy?
Sincerely, me.

how to be a nerd

I'm real nerdy.
I spend my weekends playing Super Smash Brothers with my other nerdy friends.
I'm in love with several different fictional characters, most of them superheroes. 
Speaking of which, I own twelve different superhero T-shirts. An Avengers shirt, a Justice League shirt, two Batman shirts, two Spiderman shirts, two Ironman shirts, a Superman shirt, a Deadpool shirt, a Wolverine shirt, and a Joker shirt. I also have Batman pajama pants, a Batman watch, and even a Batman wall decal in my room.
I know the DC Universe better than you do.
Oh, and let's talk about how I draw my favorite characters better than you.
I will pour hours into leveling up Pokémon.
I know everything there is to know about every single Kingdom Hearts game that has been released. And I once beat Sephiroth on my first try on Proud Mode in Kingdom Hearts II.
I've beaten Ocarina of Time at least 20 times.
I've also beaten Windwaker, Twilight Princess, and Skyward Sword multiple times.
I probably have too much Zelda dubstep on my iPod.
I was Zatanna for Halloween this year.
I think I'll love you forever if you know who that is.
The only TV shows I watch are Avatar: The Last Airbender, Teen Titans, Legend of Korra, Young Justice, and Arrow. Oh, and The Universe every now and again.
Most people just think I'm trying to be hipster, but I wear glasses and they are prescription. I can't drive legally without them.
I won't marry a man who is not half as nerdy as I am.